It's a Beautiful World

Ahh!! Assignments!!!

2009-10-09T02:53:00.001+08:00

OMG... i am still rushing my assignment at this hour and i have to wake up at 6.30am later...

I should have Let Go...

2009-05-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

Recently I remembered something unhappy. And all of a sudden I felt very gloomy... Yes, just like the sky is filled with grey clouds, like its going to rain but not there yet. I looked at my son and think back of the memories from the past. I wanted to remember the anger, the hurt, the betrayal... but all I felt is the sadness... I guess that's what is all left - sadness.

I know I should have let the past go, cos holding on to it will just make myself more sad.
I know I should have look into the future and concentrate on it cos its all that matters now.
I know I should have look at my son and be contented.
I know I want to be happy.
I know I want to be happy....

Happy ME!!

2009-03-03T18:12:00.002+08:00

I am very happy recently =D

Met up with my family and starbucks gang

Miss them very much

ESP MY DARLING!!

xx must get my driving license soon xx

My Hong

2009-02-18T18:12:00.004+08:00

It's been 2 years since He passed away

He was such a happy kitty

He's happy as long He have food to eat

I still remembered Him darting in and out of the house in full speed

Sometimes He's adorable

Sometimes He's annoying

Sometimes I felt that I indirectly killed Him

I almost forgot about Him

Now I missed Him

I wondered how is He now

Sorry Darling, I caused you so much heartache and sorrow

LIFE vs PERFECT

2009-02-13T13:08:00.005+08:00

CNY 2009 is finally over

I received a very bad news recently
My best friend is going for an op
it's Women's problem
I couldn't help it but feel very very sad
She's there when I'm facing my crisis
but this time I may not be able to be there for her
I know she'll understand
She's always so understanding
but still I feel so upset

I guess this is LIFE
things are never PERFECT
yup... LIFE & PERFECT never go together
& that is call REALITY

CNY 2009

2009-01-30T23:32:00.002+08:00

It's Chinese New Year again...

I remembered spending last year's CNY at Bedok, almost couldn't make it back to Elias, but Tristan changed it all. I hope its a good thing... who knows...?

This year's CNY feels almost no mood at all, i wonder if i'm the only one feeling this way... or maybe Motherhood made me feel this way as i am no longer a kid anymore??? BUT luckily, i get to watch a new year movie with darling and mommy on Wed, which we did as in all the past years. And that really made my new year feel better.

~TODAY~
Today, i actually felt lonely today.
Nobody is home today except me and Tristan. I haven't felt this way in a long time. Although Tristan is bawling out for me to carry him, still i felt lonely... Sometimes i secretly wonder if i'll quit everything and... oo0OO

Today is my birthday...

2009-01-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

My darling set up this blog for me long time ago but i have been too lazy, too busy to update it. All of a sudden, i feel today is a good time to update it.

Today is my birthday... but i feel super lousy. Its definitely not about my age... unless my hormones are wearing me down and i don't know it.

I am getting more frustrated these days. 1st of all, Tristan is rejecting the bottle, which leaves breastfeeding as the only option for his meals. Now i understand how the cows feel... Then i miss my freedom, to go out, to have some quality time on my own... The more i think about it, the angrier i get. I seem to be the only one missing the freedom, sometimes i even missed going to work. i am not blaming Tristan, i just feel very helpless, very angry with the situation i am in. I wished i have more help, i really can't cope.

They say mothers are very noble, i totally agree. Its really no easy feat bringing up a child. Nope i am not even halfway there compared to those noble mothers, i pity my kid as he has a mom who can't give him her everything, who wished that she can run away sometimes.

Gyne Day, Gloomy Day

2008-08-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

It's gyne day again....
I get to wake up late, so not too bad. It was raining 'sunny' rain, old people used to say this kind of rain will make you sick if you can drenched by it (old wives tale)...

Gyne appointment first-
I didn't gain any weight, but luckily the baby is alright. I know I know... eat more... Its not that I am not eating or I am having diet, I just eat normal, eat when hungry, eat when I should.

I am experiencing more pain too. 1) From the movements of the baby, oh mine, he's getting bigger and my stomach is stretched to its almost fullest potential. Sometimes I can even see his elbow or buttocks or thighs edging my tummy... very amazing experience, but of cos, its not comfortable all the time. 2) From the contractions, they came like sharp pain. Sometimes short but sometimes longer. And painful... Doc says when the baby is due, the pain will come faster and longer and won't stop till the baby is delivered (OMG...!).

Then she did a check on me and she concluded that I may deliver earlier than the estimated delivery date. Hmm... I will skip my comment on this finding, cos I really don't know how I feel about this. Didn't feel particularly excited... maybe a bit disappointed?

Next, National Day Rally 2008
Let's talk about the much anticipated National Day Rally on Baby.
My most concerned topic is on Maternity leave and and Baby Bonus. Moms get to have 16 weeks (instead of 12) maternity leave and baby bonus of $4000 (instead of $3000) and other good stuff too... But the catch is, the new perks will only take effect in Jan 2009. I am only upset about the Baby Bonus cos that means we will only get the $3k as my baby will be born in Sept 2008, so most of the new perks will be, none of my business. Sobsob...
But then again, I am quite happy that I won't get to enjoy the 4 months maternity leave, cos I don't think I will ever get to enjoy 4 months of leave. I may even have problem trying to take the full 12 weeks. Now with so much going on in office (Doris's father-in-law sick, Linda may be having stones and me... getting more tired and grouchy and angry every single day, I don't know how much longer I can hold on. Maybe its not such a bad idea that my baby is arriving sooner than expected. Yes, maybe I should look on the bright side.

Gyne Day

2008-08-08T00:03:00.001+08:00

Aiya... I am having trouble with my blog... Tsk tsk, very lousy 'blogger'...
Haha... trying to explore more on blogging, luckily my darling is helping me out.

Today is Gyne Day, I finally put on some weight, and baby is weighing normal too. I weight at 51kg today. Dr Khi has been saying that I don't put on enough weight on the past consultations. Luckily all those gulping down on freshmilk has finally paid off... I know, I know, I am actually very lucky to be able to drink so much freshmilk... But try drinking it everyday without fail, you will feel sick at some point.

My very 1st post!

2008-07-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yah...! My 1st post!!

Hmm... what should I post............

A new beginning... new chapter...