Meow! I'm SanSan
I'm in love with online shopping. Love my kid, my sis and my cats!
This is Tristan; my son
Though he looks like a little angel, at times he may be a little devil.
This is his favourite facial expression. Whenever he does this, it means he's going to cry soon.
And this is my precious darling.
Still a small kid to me :)
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OMG... i am still rushing my assignment at this hour and i have to wake up at 6.30am later...
Appear 10/09/2009 02:53:00 AM
Recently I remembered something unhappy. And all of a sudden I felt very gloomy... Yes, just like the sky is filled with grey clouds, like its going to rain but not there yet. I looked at my son and think back of the memories from the past. I wanted to remember the anger, the hurt, the betrayal... but all I felt is the sadness... I guess that's what is all left - sadness.
I know I should have let the past go, cos holding on to it will just make myself more sad.
I know I should have look into the future and concentrate on it cos its all that matters now.
I know I should have look at my son and be contented.
I know I want to be happy.
I know I want to be happy....
Appear 5/08/2009 11:47:00 PM
It's been 2 years since He passed away
He was such a happy kitty
He's happy as long He have food to eat
I still remembered Him darting in and out of the house in full speed
Sometimes He's adorable
Sometimes He's annoying
Sometimes I felt that I indirectly killed Him
I almost forgot about Him
Now I missed Him
I wondered how is He now
Sorry Darling, I caused you so much heartache and sorrow
Appear 2/18/2009 06:12:00 PM
It's Chinese New Year again...
I remembered spending last year's CNY at Bedok, almost couldn't make it back to Elias, but Tristan changed it all. I hope its a good thing... who knows...?
This year's CNY feels almost no mood at all, i wonder if i'm the only one feeling this way... or maybe Motherhood made me feel this way as i am no longer a kid anymore??? BUT luckily, i get to watch a new year movie with darling and mommy on Wed, which we did as in all the past years. And that really made my new year feel better.
~TODAY~
Today, i actually felt lonely today.
Nobody is home today except me and Tristan. I haven't felt this way in a long time. Although Tristan is bawling out for me to carry him, still i felt lonely... Sometimes i secretly wonder if i'll quit everything and... oo0OO
Appear 1/30/2009 11:32:00 PM
My darling set up this blog for me long time ago but i have been too lazy, too busy to update it. All of a sudden, i feel today is a good time to update it.
Today is my birthday... but i feel super lousy. Its definitely not about my age... unless my hormones are wearing me down and i don't know it.
I am getting more frustrated these days. 1st of all, Tristan is rejecting the bottle, which leaves breastfeeding as the only option for his meals. Now i understand how the cows feel... Then i miss my freedom, to go out, to have some quality time on my own... The more i think about it, the angrier i get. I seem to be the only one missing the freedom, sometimes i even missed going to work. i am not blaming Tristan, i just feel very helpless, very angry with the situation i am in. I wished i have more help, i really can't cope.
They say mothers are very noble, i totally agree. Its really no easy feat bringing up a child. Nope i am not even halfway there compared to those noble mothers, i pity my kid as he has a mom who can't give him her everything, who wished that she can run away sometimes.
Appear 1/05/2009 10:34:00 PM